Story of my life

My Hiding Place

2006-07-04T16:11:00.000+08:00

You are my hiding place,
You always feel my heart with songs of deliverance,
Whenever I'm afriad,
I will trust in You....
I will trust in You....
Let the weak say I am strong,
In the strength of the Lord,
I WILL TRUST IN YOU

Missing You......

2006-06-27T22:52:00.000+08:00

Days, months, years has passed but I still miss you more than ever. Everytime when there's a family gathering I always remember you and miss your presence..... I cried last year at Uncle Johnson's wedding because I really wished that you were there.... I shed some tears tonight when my sis said that she wished that you were here tonight.... We really miss you! I miss your laughter, your cooking and just you because you have always reassured us that everything is going to be alright. I miss just being able to hold you and hug you and to hold your hand and walk side by side. I miss having sleepovers in your room and playing cards with you until really late at night. I miss driving you around in my car. I miss going out shopping with you. I miss having long walks with you and telling you my deepest dreams.... knowing that you are always there for me, my pillar of strength and comfort. Life has never been the same since you left us and I really miss you. You are now in the arms of God in a place where there's no pain or sorrow. I thank God for giving me a grandma like you.... there's nothing more a granddaughter could ask for. You will always have a special place in my heart.... forever I'll remember your smile. My kind, loving and graceful grandmother. Love you forever and ever.

IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY DEAR GRANDMOTHER

I lost a grandma with a heart of gold
Who was more to me than wealth untold
Without farewell she fell asleep
With only memories for me to keep
I have lost, but God has gained
One of the best grandmas the world contained

Her heart was the truest in all the world
Her love the best to recall
For none of earth can take her place
She is still the dearest grandma of all

If she could have spoken before she died,
These are the words she would have replied
This life for me has truly passed
I've loved you to the very last
Weep not for me
But courage take
And love each other
For my sake.

I finished watching the jap series!!!!!

2006-06-24T20:18:00.000+08:00

Since Wednesday night most of my nights back from work, I"ll be stuck on my comp... why? coz my sis burnt this jap series called 'Beautiful Life' for me. It has Kimura Takuya which is the guy that used to model for Levi's engineering jeans b'fore.. the leng chai... Anyways I started watching it on Wed night and suddenly it reminded me of my uni days when I used to be such a jap series junkie with my housemate then. We used to stay up late and watch disc by disc and end up crying and laughing together. This time due to work commitments I had to spread out and watch all 11 episodes in 4 nights and tonight I finally finished watching it! Hahahaha I was all composed throughout the first 10 episodes but then I ended up crying while watching the last episode. It was so sad but at the same time I was laughing at myself coz I was crying at a show. Anyways enough of all these emo stuff.

Guess what!?!?!?!?!?! British guy is back!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He came in to work yesterday and asked to have shifts at the restaurant *sigh* After 3 weeks of peace now I'm stuck back to having an annoying person at work.... (I have to be patient) peoples.... sorry if I complain too much from next week onwards..... heheheheh I have some other stuff to post as well but I need to really sit down and write them and I don't think I'll get it out tonight so till next time.... take care and God Bless!

A Day In the Life Of ME!

2006-06-19T21:45:00.000+08:00

Just thought I'll pen down what happened to me throughout the whole day.... it has certainly been an eventful one... with ups and downs

Morning:
Woke up and took Sue Anne for exams..... Didn't realise that the stewpid traffic was so horrible. After that went to work and was just busy the whole time coz thanks to my boss that wasn't helping at all. I was left to set the whole restaurant by myself.... (it's Monday so I have to set the whole restaurant with napkins, knife and fork... and to set the whole restaurant takes about at least 1 hour) And not to forget that there were customers coming in for coffee at the same time.... so it was me having to take coffee orders, make them and send it out to the tables and at the same time trying to get everything done! Luckily Amber came and helped me but even then there was just heaps of stuff to be done... I had a whole pile of cutlery that had to be polished and my boss was no where to be found.... his excuse: I'm really tired and I can't take it anymore... I need to go out for a walk. And with that he left. When he came back, there was still cutlery to be done and I ran out of polished teaspoons and were looking for them and I passed a comment that I needed those spoons. The reply that I received from him was: If I was doing the cutlery I would polish the spoons first. but HELLO!!!!! if I don't polish the knifes and forks first I wouldn't even have enough the set the restaurant and we would not be ready for lunch service! If he were to at least stay and help me do some work I wouldn't have to struggle through! Like as though I wasn't tired as well.... *sigh* Sometimes work can be quite irritating.... it probably is more especially when you're so tired.

After Work:

I went over to the hospital to see Ian. Had some good news that he can now take fluids but not much and his infection is clearing. Praise God for that! Spent a while in the hospital talking to him and left for home to get ready to go out for dinner. Now dinner is a whole new story... it was so funny that I laughed so hard throughout the night and it was such an enjoyable dinner.

Met up with Shaun for dinner as he is leaving for M'sia tomorrow for holidays (how I wished it was me) We went to this restaurant called Pondok Bali which is an Indonesian restaurant.... when we first got there the first thing that Shaun asked me was 'Is Bali in Thailand?' and I cracked up laughing.... I figured that it was because he had an exam today and his brain was left in the exam hall.... After composing ourselves we decided to order our dinner.... half way through the dinner I suddenly stopped and say 'the music is driving me crazy' and then we both cracked up laughing again.... they were playing this really irritating music that repeats itself again and again... and Shaun laughed so hard coz he said that he was thinking exactly the same thing but I said it out first. After laughing and eating in the restaurant for about 1 1/2 hours we decided to go somewhere else for dessert. We ended up having dessert at Spatz... (the place that I don't really like coz of their service) We were shown to this booth which was so small and I started laughing and asked if we could change tables... it was one of those booths that are so intimate that you would actually feel costrophobic. After ordering and finishing our desserts we were talking and then suddenly my phone rang and it was Wilson.... He asked me where I am and stuff and the next thing I know he was actually in Spatz as well with Lok Ing and he heard me talking and it was seriously so funny.... All in all it was such a fun night filled with so much laughter. There were a lot of other funny stories as well but too many to tell. Till next time.... Take care and God bless! :)

Count Our Blessings

2006-06-08T20:29:00.000+08:00

So very often we tend to take things for granted and expect things to be what we expect and want it to be. We always look at things and always says 'I could have', 'I should have' and always dwell on the negative side refusing to see the goodness and the other things that come out of a particular situation. Hence we need to constantly remind ourselves to count our blessings. Sometimes I get so consumed in things that I forget to do so as well. If we look at things from different point of views, we would see that the situation that seems so big doesn't seem that big anymore. Throughout the past few weeks I have been learning a lot and God has never failed to show me things that I need to change on and learn from; be it through a situation or people. Sometimes it is really frustrating and irritating but once you let it go it doesn't seem that bad after all. Therefore instead of complaning about things all the time... I am going to try to count my blessings and thank God for everything and every situation that He has placed me in.

BE THANKFUL (Author Unknown)

Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire.
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?
Be thankful when you don't know something,
for it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.
During those times you grow.
Be thankful for your limitations,
because they give you opportunities for improvement.
Be thankful for each new challenge,
because it will build your strength and character.

Be thankful for your mistakes.
They will teach you valuable lessons.
Be thankful when you're tired and weary,
because it means you've made a difference.

It's easy to be thankful for the good things.
A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks.
Gratitude can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles,
and they can become your blessings.

2006-05-28T22:02:00.000+08:00

Clouds in life are passing
But soon we see His Light
Written in the wind and sea
God's everlasting Might
He sees us in our passing
He looks at us with pride
Knows that we are searching

For Gentle Hands to Guide
But seas in life are rough now
Through clouds it's hard to see
But Light will enter brightly
Then peacefully appease
For we are but the sailors
Who seek to find the way
Mighty is our Captain
Who guides us as we pray
The waters calm and steady
Upon the shore we'll land
And we will know the bounty
His Ray of Light so Grand.
Francine Pucillo© 2003

New Year Resolution?

2006-01-04T15:04:00.000+08:00

Well.... it's a little late to write this considering that we're in the middle of January already but what the heck. Looking back at the past year it has been a great year and I learnt heaps as well.... somethings were not that pleasant but some were memorable.

How many times have you said that you won't allow yourself to be taken for granted! (a zillion times) but then subsequently you would still be taken for granted.
Why can't people be fair and treat people nice? Compassion and being sensitive to people's needs are so lacking nowadays.... where are all the nice people?
Work can really drive you INSANE!!!!!! and also make you CRY!!!!!!! I have decided that this year I'm not going to take that crap anymore and do something about it.

Now to the nicer things

God has been great! He has never stopped blessing me in so many ways.
Having family and friends around is always great. I'm thankful to my parents that have always never failed to provide and support me.
It doesn't mean that a friend is far away that you still can't be close. As much as I don't like people going away and moving interstate but hey, life still has to go on and the best that we can do is to support the decision and be supportive about it. After all there's still planes around and it's not that far to fly around.
I have great friends that makes me laugh so hard and it's great hanging out with them.

New Year Prayer

God grant us this year a wider view,

So we see others' faults through the eyes of You.

Teach us to judge not with hasty tongue,

Neither the adult ... nor the young.

Give us patience and grace to endure And a stronger faith so we feel secure.

Instead of remembering, help us forgetThe irritations that caused us to fret.

Freely forgiving for some offense And finding each day a rich recompense.

In offering a friendly, helping hand And trying in all ways to understand;

That all of us whoever we are ...Are trying to reach an unreachable star.

For the great and small ... the good and bad,

The young and old ... the sad and glad

Are asking today; Is life worth living?

The answer is only in, loving and giving.

For only Love can make man kindAnd Kindness of Heart brings Peace of Mind.

By giving love, we can start this year

To lift the clouds of hate and fear.

author- Helen Steiner Rice

Happy New Year and May this year be a great year for everyone!

I'm still alive and kicking

2005-12-15T20:06:00.000+08:00

I'm still alive just in case anyone's wondering where I have been... I just wish that there's more hours in a day so that I could accomplish more stuff..... will update soon......

I miss my grandma

2005-10-08T15:38:00.000+08:00

Who can say for certain,
Maybe you’re still here,
I feel you all around me,
Your memories so clear,
Deep within the stillness,
I can feel you breath,
You’re still an inspiration,
Can it be….
That you are mine,
Forever more… watching me from up above,
And I believe on angels wings,
That our love will live on and always be…..

Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant stars,
I wish upon tonight to see you smile,
If only for a while to know you’re there…
A breathe away’s not far to where you are…..

It's almost two years now since I lost my grandma but I still miss her so much..... I will always love you grandma!

Happy Birthday Sabrina!

2005-09-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Sab! I was going to call at 12am but I couldn't coz I was busy at work.... Anyways hope you have a great day!

The past few days I have been thinking about the word "TRUST". How many times do you trust someone but then realise that they have let you down..... Nowadays when I'm at work it's hard to tell who you can trust at the workplace.... and therefore the best thing is to keep quiet. Because you won't know what you say might just go back to another person and it would then be circulated around. It's funny because working used to be fun and challenging for me.... but of late it has pretty much been a drag to go to work. Why so? I don't know..... I know that work isn't always good and smooth flowing but last time even when everyone is so agitated around me I would not let it affect me.... but of late I get really irritated... is it because I am not as patient as before? Or I just keep quiet and don't say a thing until it really frustrates me how people keep talking about other people and therefore I don't know who to TRUST?

Oh well I hope I find out soon.....

It's been a long time.....

2005-09-20T21:37:00.000+08:00

It's been a long long long time since I updated my blog..... I have been busy lately and there's so many things to think about and to a certain extent stress about..... I was recently back in Malaysia for about 1o days and it was the shortest visit that I ever had and didn't really have time to meet up with people. And now I'm back in Adelaide (just in case some people are confused and don't know where I am *wink*) Went back to work on thursday and had the crappiest week ever... sometimes don't you feel like you would just want time to stop so that you can actually take a breather and breathe before you walk the next step? That's how I felt the past few weeks and I think I have to remind myself that I have to sometimes just stop and breathe. Even though at the moment things seems to be a blur to me at the moment and I do not really know which direction I'm heading to but I know that in His time, He will make all things beautiful, and I know He will :)

Take Time
Take Time for what's important to you,
for what makes you happiest,

Take time to be with those you love
and share your deepest wish, most secret dream
your favourite fantasy.

Take time to look around at all the gladness
the world can offer- all of it is yours if only you take the time.

thinking... still thinking.... and will still be thinking

2005-08-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

Have you ever reached a state where you think so much and it stresses you out so much that you feel sick and have gastric? well.... that was what happened to me today.... The past few weeks I have been thinking and thinking and thinking till oh my goodness.... my brain is going to burst soon..... I hope that soon enough everything will fall into place and I can soon see the big picture.... but until then I'm just going to leave it to God. Last weekend was pretty crazy at work as well.... stress levels were at an all time peak and to add to that.... to much estrogen flying around as well.... At this moment I think I'm faced with some decisions that I have to make soon and I'm at this crossroad standing in the middle trying to figure out which road I would want to take. But thank goodness I have friends here and in higher places that makes things so much better.

Here's a poem by Emily Matthews on Friendship.... to all my friends, thanks for being there for me and brightening up my day when everything seems to be wrong and making me laugh when I need some cheering up :)

Friends are like angels

Our friends are like angels who brighten our days
In all kinds of wonderful magical ways-
Their thoughtfulness comes as a gift from above
And we feel we’re surrounded by warm, caring love
Like upside-down rainbows their smiles bring the sun
And they fill ho-hum moments with laughter and fun
Friends are like angels without any wings
Blessing our lives with the most precious things.

How much is enough?

2005-07-30T21:38:00.000+08:00

How many times would you be left dissapointed and then say that this will be your last time and you would not take any more crap from people but eventually allow yourself to be left dissapointed again and again? too many times that I can't even count. How much is enough? You always try to do what you think is right but somehow it's not good enough...... Even if you think that you're doing out of the goodness of your heart but others take it the wrong way..... I don't know what else to write and say as I am currently lost for words.... But this thing I know for sure..... I thank God that He will keep pressing on even though at times we dissapointed him so many times, thank God that He is gracious and will never forsake us..... And I know that when I am dissapointed with things that are happening around me I have God to go to and that's why I love Him so much!

Busy, busy, busy

2005-07-27T19:31:00.000+08:00

Today was another crazy and busy day at work.... it was so busy in the restaurant until 2 that we almost didn't have tables to give out to people that did not have a reservation.... and to top it up, my boss was not around..... but we all survived and I thought that we all did pretty well. As some of you might have known, I had a few days off the past few days. It has been relaxing but at the same time stressful as well... a lot of things to think about and stuff going through my mind..... Will tell when the time is right.... Anyways hope all of you have a great day and till next time :) take care and God Bless!

Why I was so angry at work yesterday....

2005-07-24T09:31:00.000+08:00

The whole weeks has been great except for yesterday.... I was so irritated at work.... how can people be so rude and shout at you... and the worse thing is when people challenge your authority. I mean look there has to be a reason why my boss lets me run the restaurant when he's not around right... then why would people want to challenge my decisions.... that's one thing that I really can't stand.... fine if it's an unreasonable decision but how can my decision of still allowing customers have lunch even though it's 2:53 and the kitchen is supposed to close at 3 a wrong one? I was given the instruction that until the clock turns 3, the kitchen is still open, there I am following orders but unfortunately the staff refuses to listen to me.... arghhh!!!!! so frustrating. Anyways I've got 3 days off in a row!!! which is awesome!!!! am so exicted! Till my next post.... take care everyone!

Another day at work....

2005-07-22T21:04:00.000+08:00

It has been a long day at work for me today but it was pretty good surprisingly.... I thought that today would be a really stressfull day and everything would go wrong.... but it turned out to be the exact opposite. My favourite customer came in to the restaurant today and so it made my day heheheh.... I like the regulars in the restaurant coz they are so nice and cute..... especially the nice old ladies.... (not all are nice though) they just make it really nice to work. oh yeah and for those that do not know.... I bought a new car!!!! I got it last week and was so exicted about it. Well my parents helped me out by getting the car.... It's a civic and it's champagne in colour... Will post up pictures of it when I take some. I'm really blessed coz my parents has never failed to provide and give me what I want and need..... Even though sometimes I don't deserve things they still do give it to me :P I hope that I would be able to give them back what they have given to me and more...... I really thank God for my parents! Well off to bed now coz gotta work tomorrow! Till next time.....

I can't believe this.....

2005-07-21T20:52:00.000+08:00

I don't understand why I can't just leave a comment in a blog without having to CREATE an account..... it's pretty ridiculous.... but anyways I'm already here and have created an account so what the heck... hmmmm.... seem to sound a bit agitated but I'm not really...... probably gotta go for anger management.... hahahahah for those that see my blog, this place would probably be the place where I vent out my frustration and thoughts..... anyways back to my main reason..... which is to post a comment on one of my friend's blog.